Thursday, November 10, 2005

Marzipan Babies?






My first thought: Aren't they cute and don't they look amazing!!





If you thought they were real babies or premature foetus, then you are very wrong. The email that accompanied these photos said that they were made from Marzipan.

Definition of Marzipan Almond Paste: a sweet paste made of ground almonds and sugar, often with egg whites or yolks, used as a layer in cakes or molded into ornamental shapes




They look so amazingly real, especially since they are photographed in the Anne Geddes mode, where all babies look so ethereal. I was forwarded this email with a note that said "I could eat them all".

Thank God I googled "Marzipan Babies, and found that it is only a myth that they were made from marzipan, but this Camille Allen and this other website says it's made out of polymer clay or resin, and they're not edible.

For me, I love babies way too much to ever be able to pop one of these in my mouth, even if they are really edible. It just seems wrong! I just want to cradle and smooth them ...





Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Unbalance + Balance

I think my blog has been getting a bit too serious of late, so I thought I might balance it up with something funny that I saw off a blog of a friend of a friend. We have all been there but I think it takes guts to give an answer like this to an exam question:



Now, why didn't I think of it first ...

Lost and Found - What Goes Around Comes Around -



I lost a best friend once, but now I found him again ... and the magical thing is that even though our lives have been running parallel for around 10 years, the love between us has never diminished and we moved on from the point that we left it.

I lost my phone book when I went back to Singapore for the first time in almost 3 years in 2000., since arriving in Australia. It was a great loss, not only because of all the contact phone numbers which I had not backed up, but also the little notes that I wrote in there to remind myself of the pain of losing someone. At that time, I still had my core contacts via email, so I didn't worry too much, but there was a particular friend that I missed, and miraculously, through a dream he had, that brought me back to him, we reconnected.

After going through all possible avenues to try to contact me (even trying websites to see if somehow I had gained fame), he wrote a letter to my home address and my kind brother Julian, typed it out for me. I screamed for joy when I saw the letter and the memories flowed ... I had missed him a lot.

The reunion was bitter-sweet. Bitter because of all those lost years but sweet because the connection we had, had not faded. It is so wonderful to find something that we lost once, and so good to know that our core values have kept our hearts together.

In his latest email, he "returned" a poem that I sent him almost 10 years ago on the 3rd April 1996. I had forgotten how much I loved that poem, but then it is probably because I have it ingrained in my everyday life, I live and breathe it. It was and still is a wonderful gift and like he said, it is time for it to resurface again.

Friendships lie on my very core and my relationships define who I am. I am proud of every relationship I have with my family and friends and if I don't say it enough, I just want to say "I love you all" once again ...


Around The Corner: By Henson Towne

Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.
And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine
if, we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
"Tomorrow" I say "I will call on Jim"
"Just to show that I'm thinking of him."
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner!- yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram sir"
"Jim died today."
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.

Remember to always say what you mean. If you love someone, tell them. Don't be afraid to express yourself. Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you. Because when you decide that it is the right time, it might be too late. Seize the day. Never have regrets. And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today. It doesn't have to be the kind of boy-girl type of love, it may be the friendship that you treasure and the love that you have for your family members and relatives. Somewhere in time, you will feel regrets of not telling someone that you've lost, how much you love them. So, don't let that happen to you.

I don't think I wrote the above passage, but like I said before, I must have it ingrained in my life. It was probably during a time when I faced the possibility of losing my grandma, which opened my eyes to the importance of expressing love whenever we find the chance. Now, I hug my parents every single time I see them, and it leaves a very special feeling in all of us. If there is one fear that you must conquer in your life, let it be saying "I love you" ...

The Tall and Short of Irony



I take the same bus to work everyday and alight at the same stop with a lady dwarf or what someone would call a pigmy. The only other person I sort of know which is also a dwarf is a brother of a classmate at primary school. Then, since we were all growing up and taller, it didn't make too much a difference but then, I still remember him attracting stares from everyone. I also remember that he had a strong presence. It could be a facade but he held it well, ready to challenge anyone who was ready to tease.

I just started noticing this lady recently, especially once when she kindly gestured me to move ahead of her during alighting in a crowded bus. She also had that strong presence, and she seemed comfortable with the stares that people were probably donating her way. There was a part of me that has always felt like reaching out to more "disadvantaged" people, like picking the quietest in the group and speaking to them, and acts like this, but I didn't do it here.

Today, as I stepped out of the train, I noticed a lady who was towering over everyone. She was easily 2.3 m tall with a huge bone structure which easily attracted everyone's attention. I felt a little guilty for staring , maybe I was trying to see if she was a drag queen to start off with, but I quickly dispelled it, and was more interested to see how she perceived all the attention she received. She had a poker face but I could see that she was probably more uncomfortable than the dwarf is. She looked like she wished that people would not see her as a "freak" (especially when I passed by some schoolgirls who exclaimed "Wow!"), and she looked smaller than she was.

A part of me wanted to go over and say "I know how you feel", but then I don't ... really. What right do we have to walk over and say things like that? They are after all, perfectly normal human beings. We all have our imperfections, natural and cultivated. Thankfully, for most of us, it is ingrained in our behaviours or preferences, and not as glaring physically, so we might not "stand out" as easily, but still, we have our differences, and why should we be judged because of these.

I wondered if it could be compared to celebrities and all that attention, both of which could be unwanted. I know how uncomfortable I would feel in their shoes and would need to build my character strong to withstand this everyday. Maybe they are the lucky ones, because they have a physical reminder to do so, while some of us idle away and whittle at every challenge presented. I know how many people dread losing one of their senses or our limbs as if that will be the downfall and the end of our lives. We tend to forget how strong these people can actually be ... even more than those who are perfectly "normal" or common, and that is a lesson to learn.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Mother Teresa



What does it take for one to be someone as wonderful as Mother Teresa? She was probably just as human as you and I, but the love that she had in her inspires. When God took her away, we lost an important voice preaching of empathy ...

What we have today in the world, are endless technological advances to help improve our life, designs to help us communicate with more strangers in the world, images to enjoy and appreciate, immediate news to educate, but yet we are losing our basic values of empathy.

As I lay engrossed in my new wonderful book "My Life So Far" by the incredible Jane Fonda, I am reminded of the wars that Ms Fonda has been through, fighting for the end of the Vietnam war, and being misunderstood for being unpatriotic because she wanted to end the war. I have been through some wars, not actively fighting in it, but against the latest, through the peace marches that were held in Sydney before the Iraq War started. Many have compared it to Vietnam, which I can only recollect through images on film, but in any war, there are only losers, no winners. There are people who lose their lives, their families, their loves ...



One quote in the book stands out:

"The problem with the world is that we draw the circle of our family too small" - Mother Teresa

Jane Fonda adds:

"There must be a stepping back, a looking at the big picture. Stepping back is hard when your life has been traumatised and hatred has built up against the "enemy" and against those who opposed the war and seemed to have sided with the enemy. This is why wars begun unnecessarily and for the wrong reasons - like the one we are fighting in Iraq as I write this - develop a momentum of revenge and justification. We have to keep going. Our men and women can't have died in vain. The people on the other side are truly evil. If we pull out now, we'll lose our credibility. Better to continue to send Americans to fight and perhaps die than to say we made a mistake."

I stand guilty on Mother Teresa's quote that we draw the lines of family too small, but I know I am not alone. I may not love the next stranger as much as I love my friends and my family, but I believe I practise empathy for all people. Most humans have empathy for the less fortunate, but sometimes, we can only seem to stomach them in small batches. The tragedy of 9/11, Bali, Tsunami, New Orleans and now the earthquakes in India and Pakistan all brought forth the best in mankind. The uniform tears for the tragedies and the numerous fundraising events, but these are "small" incidents as opposed to everyday poverty and AIDS in the world. There was the infamous ad about the number of people dying of these "causes" that had to be pulled out because it was too confronting to the governments and the superpowers of the world to react to them. When will people start realising that AIDS is no longer a gay man's disease but an epidemic in impoverished countries like Africa and is rapidly spreading to developing countries all around the world who are too poor to afford the advanced medical supplies to help sustain life.

An article linking AIDS and poverty:
http://www.makepovertyhistory.org/whatwewant/povertyaids.shtml

I am not asking you to cradle an AIDS infected baby like Princess Diana did, but the world can do with a lot of less prejudice and more love, empathy and awareness. We look at the number of people who died and we sigh. I think we sometimes fail to think that like you and I, they have feelings and they have loved ones and they have families who are going to mourn their loss as much as we would. Not only for the dead but also for those suffering from poverty and the innocent Iraqis suffering the effects of war. Maybe even the soldiers who are fighting in Iraq that may not like what they are doing, but are helpless. We don't get to see many images because we are shielded from the effects of the war, but we can imagine what it would feel like if it happened to us, and hence empathy settles ...

If we are too withdrawn from these issues because we live in developed countries, we can look into our daily lives to see how we exclude people. Just my everyday trip to and from work can easily show how selfish people are sometimes. On overcrowded trains or buses, people like to stand near the exits even when they are not due to alight till much later. I feel like screaming at them to get moving or people who hog onto two seats with their "fat asses" to spare a thought, but I don't want to be one of those angry people, so I know though I am empathising, I am not doing my part. I want to tell them that we are just all as eager as they are to get home and we all have families or someone to get home to, as much as they do.

We have to look within us to find the Mother Teresa within. I do volunteer work because I love to help the less fortunate (than I am) to have a better life, but sometimes, I wonder if people will not donate or attend a fundraiser only if there is a major drawcard like a celebrity attached to it, to glamorise the whole cause. This defeats the whole purpose to charitable work (not the celebrities fault but sometimes ours) where the point of it is to educate, increase awareness and assist. The glamour of the position does not attract me but the smiles from those affected does. It is this power of influence that I am interested in, not in the power of control.

Like many, I feel small and insignificant sometimes, but I will never cease to speak up for my rights. In a land that I now choose to call my home, there are still many issues that we can sometimes feel helpless about, but speaking about it in public forums like this and having discussions, will hopefully increase awareness, and the importance of empathy. We need to be aware in order to be able to form an opinion. Like many of you, I used to hide behind and listen when people talk about politics or I choose to walk away because politics is too difficult, or it is not for me. Little was I aware of how infectious it is, and how my daily life options can be limited by this lack of knowledge and opinion. I was dumb then but I want to educate now. It is important for us to read and listen, and for us to discuss as objectively as possible (with facts), so that we can recognise injustice and speak against it when it occurs. In the process, we become stronger and better human beings, and hopefully create awareness amongst the ignorant.


I believe the ongoing natural disasters are a sign that we (or the superpowers) have become heartless and we need a leader who can truly inspire us to set thins right, but in the absence of that, we have to fight within our environments by doing the right things.

This is a long and endless journey but we are not alone, and we will never be, because we can all be like Mother Teresas, if only we think and practise the love within us to include and to be proud of who we are.



Crimson



To me, "Crimson" will always be Akina's definitive album. Akina has a tough yet feminine style that distinguished her from the rest of the singers, but she was maturing as a singer as well, and "Crimson" definitely helped to strengthen this case. She has just endured some of the worst reviews of career with her previous album " 不思議", which was unfortunate because it was an innovative album way ahead of its time. Listened today, it does not lose any of its freshness and it is a marvel that a top artiste like Akina would constantly seek for challenges in her career instead of sticking to a winning formula. Maybe she was reeling off the surprise success of the album before that, "D404ME", which was also of a futuristic concept, which led her to move on to "不思議". Not that "不思議" was a failure. The first week sales were 94,500 copies (9.45 万枚) but the total sales was a rather dismal 46.4万枚 as compared to "D404ME", whose first week sales were 99,590 (9.96万枚) ending with 65.1万枚, making it Akina's second best selling original album.

Proving that this was not a downturn in her career, she released a highly anticipated new album on the X'Mas Eve of 1986, "Crimson", which was a talking point at that time because of the composers of the album, making it one of the first times that a top artiste has used only female composers in an album. Enlisting the talents of 竹内まりや (Takeuchi Mariya) and 小林明子 (Kobyashi Akiko), they created a woman's album of all time. Akina's rendition of their songs were softer and presented a more matured and feminine sound that was previously unheard.

It was an instant hit, entering (not surprisingly) the Oricon album chart at No. 1 with sales of 105,770 copies (10.58 万枚) , the second highest first week sales of Akina's career at that time (her career No. 1 was for "Possibility" - 109,890 copies). It may have been the disappointment of some fans with "不思議" that prompted the strong first week sales but fans embraced the album, staying at the pole position for 4 week and making it one of her best selling albums totalling 60.1万枚.

The magic of "Crimson" is evident from the first song, where it opens with the bustle of New York and the opening song "Mind Game" and moves slowly onto evergreens and classics like "", " 約束", "OH NO,OH YES !" and "ミック・ジャガ-に微笑みを" (Mick Jagger's Smile) ending with the opening of the door and back into the city. This elegant album mostly made up of ballads and some mid tempo numbers helped showcase Akina's versatility and new found maturity and femininity.

I will never forget the day I bought the cassette when it was released. I loved every single song and at that time, it was my first Akina album that WEA has included a booklet in the cassette. The photos were mostly black and white in conjunction with the album's concept and were exquisitely shot. I remember calling my friend, Terence, after every song and exclaiming "Oh, my God, this is so good.", and played them through the phone with the earphone on the headset.

"Crimson" is thoroughly enjoyable and the arrangement on the last song is most original, and never repeated. It started a "love-hate" affair with 竹内まりや because it is evident that Akina admires her very much as a songwriter and loves the songs deeply, constantly choosing them again for her concerts, but she would have felt the hurt of the comments that Mariya's husband (山下達郎 Yamashita Tatsuro) made in the inner sleeves of Mariya's album "Request" when he wrote that the a top singer (not naming Akina) has sung the song "" badly, thus prompting him to encourage Mariya to do the song some justice. Thankfully, it was pointed out recently on Tien's blog that he has changed his opinion and that it was the arrangement of the song that he disliked.

"" has long since withstood time to be the definitive song of the album and a fan's favourite. Many other singers have covered it since, even Richard Marx, and even though it was Mariya who popularised the song, she sang it in her signature light style which to me, didn't really suit the theme of the song, which was about the rediscovery of lost love and the final realisation that their love was still evident even though they had both moved on. Akina's melancholic rendition on the album was perfect and I strongly recommend watching Akina's live performance of "" in her 1997 Felicidad Concert, which is extremely moving.

At the pinnacle of her career, Akina has achieved another successful album that is a classic, beautiful tunes to relax and sway to different moods of any day. Today, Akina's talent is evident, not only as a singer but also as producer of the album (another achievement), because of the timeless albums that she has carved for her career. She can be truly proud of every challenge she has mastered and conquered, which is why the magic of Akina still enraptures some new audience today.

Incidentally, more than 15 years ago while flipping through reference books at the National Library, I browsed through a book "The 200 Best Album Covers" and to my surprise and delight, in this book published in the US, was the cover of "Crimson" ...



Heaven is ...

A few months back, I read with interest, an entry on Tien's blog about a Japanese drama that she has just watched 「世界の中心で、愛をさけぶ」. When we went to Japan together, I watched as Tien and Eugin bought the box set and wondered if there it was so good that I would have to watch it one day too. I have not watched Japanese drama series for more than a year now, believing that our lives could be consumed with the characters in the series, so the thought stayed with me.



When I came back to Australia, somehow at the back of my head, I searched for the drama series, trying to convince myself, but still I resisted when I saw it. A few weeks back, as interest accumulated, I succumbed after it was placed on further discount and hence, made more available.

The story line, as Tien described is simple, and it spoke of everlasting love between the two lead characters. You would know from the beginning that it is a tragedy not only from Tien's review and the blurb at the back, but also because the drama series is adapted from a very famous book and movie, and is based on true life events in the author's life, hence making it more essential viewing for me. The time spent between the two overs were short, but their love is nothing short of a miracle ...

My verdict: I loved it and it is one of the best dramas that I have watched in a long time. As I sobbed through most episodes and progressed towards the end, a part of me wanted to stop there. Just like the episode of "Friends" where Rachel decided to put the book "Little Women" into the freezer because Joey was starting to get a little sad that Beth was going to die, I didn't want to finish the series, so that in my "reality", maybe the characters will live forever, and I wouldn't need to witness the end.

Denial is a very powerful force, and I know that we all practise that sometimes so that we don't have to face up to harsh realities at difficult times. I succumbed eventually, but I was happy that I did, because I stumbled upon one of the most beautiful lines ...

As Aki was dying in Saku's embrace, Saku asked her where she was going to, because she told Saku once that she doesn't believe that we go to another world when we die. She replied that there is still a heaven in the skies. As she slipped into deadly unconsciousness and woke up momentarily, she said "There is no other world. There is also no heaven. Because this ... life is heaven ...". I sobbed with realisation at how we take things in life for granted. We lament about our misfortunes and what we don't have, not realising that the fact that we have a life, and we can breathe, eat, walk, run, shit, and dream ... and it is not something that everyone can do and that in itself, life is actually heaven ...

This drama series also reminded me of how I dealt with my own beloved grandma's impending death in 1997. I will never forget that day when I spent some time alone with her on her sickbed, and shedding a few tears while I sang her a little lullaby as I stroked her hair. She looked at my tears and turned away. It was at that point, looking at her, that reality struck me that I might lose her, and I was losing it myself. A kind nurse told me later that I should never cry in front of patients and why should I cry when she was actually getting better in my presence. She told me she could see how much my grandma loved me, because she was actually feeling better that day. I wiped my tears and smiled. It was her love for me that I could see, there and then ...

Even though she is no longer with us today, like Aki said in the movie, she lives in our hearts. In our every footstep in life that we take, the joys and the pains ... till the very end.

Life is where heaven is. Loving and being loved. All the good and the bad times. Being alive is enough for us to celebrate. We would all like to experience the kind of love that Saku and Aki had, but we should be practical. They had a short time to prove their love while for some of us, we have a lifetime, no matter how long it may be. Even if we never find that one special person in our lives, look around us, the friendships, the relationships, the kinship ... this is where heaven is.



- My grandma and part of the 25 grandchildren and greatgrandchildren she had.



- I don't think many people has seen this photo because I dug it out this morning from a "get well" card that I made for my grandma, and in it was this only photo I could find then, of just the two of us together. I was proud that she loved the card because I found the courage in it to say "Thank you for your love and I love you."

Sunday, August 07, 2005

Loves Of My Life

Just jumping the gun a little here to share a photo showing my spoils from Tokyo. As I mentioned, I went out with a mission in mind - to get CDs and DVDs of my favourite female 80s pop artistes in Japan and came back with a harvest. Tien and Eugin very kindly copied some CDs for me, allowing me to complete most of my wish list, and when I showed them to my Japanese friends here in Sydney, there was a mixture of exhilaration and disbelief. I wanted to share this photo to see if some of you interested souls can spot the long forgotten oldies but goodies of the 80s.



The best part of it was observing the joy Felix had and I was really happy that I could "let go" of all these "prized" possessions and lend them to him, many of which I hadn't even had a chance to listen to. In the past, I would have felt very possessive and selfish but as I grow older, I start realising that life is temporal and too short not to share the joys of your lives. If I kept them all to myself, I would not be able to discuss them further with anyone which would shorten, instead of extending the pleasure. Somehow, life has a way of returning the good that we give as well. All in the joys of giving itself.


I have also learnt plenty from the younger Eugin , who is always so generous with all his possessions, and allowing me to relive many memories and dreams. I am most happy that I am able to do that and a friend remarked today that I am slowly becoming a Buddhist, with the Zen like qualities or being able to let go ...

Lastly, I wanted to share another special photo, which I took with one hand holding the camera, a trick taught by Leslie himself, and it was unexpectedly beautiful because the subject is one of the major loves of my life ...

My Tokyo Trip - 東京の旅- Part 1

I am going to write about my trip to Tokyo and I am describing it in installments by day. It may not be full accounts because it has after all, been more than 2 weeks since I have been back, but I will do my best here to introduce my little trip. Unfortunately, I have not been able to venture very far outside the concrete jungles of Tokyo and also many places of interest, which I had already covered during my past 2 trips, so it may not be a very scenic “tour” for many of you. I have only revisited many places that I had loved during my past 2 trips, and as I mentioned before I left, a trip of nostalgia.

I first arrived on 14th July, after a 14 hour flight from Sydney to Narita Airport. This is the longest time I had ever spent on an airplane but thankfully, during the first leg from Sydney to Singapore, I had a really nice time with a lady who was on her first overseas trip from Australia to South Africa, Europe, and then the US. It is first time I had forsaken the movies and sunk into deep conversations with her about her trip and what we were both going to do respectively. I admired her taking 4 months out to explore her dream and she acknowledged me for my impulsiveness to fly on such short notice to fulfill a great dream come true. We didn't end up exchanging numbers at the end because I believe fate brought us there for a reason and if we are meant to be friends, we will meet again. However, I wish her a best time ahead.

I had a relatively easy time past Japanese customs as compared to my previous encounter, maybe because I was slightly more experienced and I wasn't carrying 4 suspiciously big bags. As I queued up to pass customs, I started to panic about the visa situation when I looked at the TV screens that warned of deportation if you do not have a visa to enter the country. I searched through my memory and recalled that I did need to apply for a visa when I entered Japan the first time, but was quickly put to ease when I saw the list of countries exempted from having to apply for a visa a little while later and I was safe.

I wanted to fill my customs entry card in Japanese but thought it might be better I not show off. So, I settled for only a Japanese comment "コンサートへ いきます (To watch a concert)" as the reason for entering Japan. I walked up to a counter with a friendly Japanese female customs officer and greeted her in Japanese. I learned that if you were friendly, they were likely to return the favour. She screened through the details and then asked whose concert I was going to. I replied "Nakamori Akina." She smiled and said "Honto" (Really), probably because she was partly surprised that Akina still held concerts, but still said "Enjoy your concert and your stay".

After walking down a flight of stairs, I picked up my luggage from the belt and started through the baggage checkpoints. Just when I was expecting a thorough search because he asked me to place my luggage on the desk, he asked "Where are you from", I replied "Australia", and he said "You're okay to go". I guess that was one of the biggest advantages of having one of the strictest customs in the world in Australia.



The first thing I did after entering Tokyo was to immerse myself in the morning air of Narita Airport. I think I kept saying "Natsukashii" (Nostalgia) even though the airport had been renovated since I was last there. There was still a sense of familiarity for me. I proceeded onto one of my favourite things about Tokyo ... their drinks vending machines. No other country in the world that I have been too, cares as much about packaging and there is such a huge variety of drinks and vending machines available, that I don't think I got to try everything in them. I was most delighted though to find that they have many recyclable bins nowadays which wasn't available when I was first there.



The past 2 times I've been to Tokyo, I had taken the limousine bus from Narita Airport to one of their destination stops, usually a hotel, and then a cab back to my aunts, but being more adventurous this time, I decided to take the trains, and was I in for a shock, when I looked at the various subway maps. After I tried looking for the station that I was meant to alight for about 5 minutes, I gave up and went to the counter to purchase a ticket. Thankfully, the lady spoke a bit of English and was helpful in letting me understand that the train was departing in about 10 minutes on platform 1.



I walked down and looked at the map inside the train for “Mita” Station. Since it was rather complicated and I couldn’t figure it out still, I decided to ask a schoolgirl if the train headed that way. It was a mistake because it was rather far away (about 1 and a half hour ride) and she wasn’t heading that far, so she said No. Just as the train was about the depart, I saw the train guard but as he confirmed, it was too late to board the train, so I had to wait for the next. I asked another elderly man this time who reaffirmed that the train does not go to Mita, and just as I was about to ignore him, he hurriedly pointed out further in Japanese that it does, and started rattling on. My Japanese is only rather elementary, so I tried to make out what he was saying. He started pointing to the subway map and it was then that I realized that I had to change at another station before I could get to the Mita station. I was so happy I nearly hugged him but I refrained, as he started talking more and more, and I could sprinkle many nods with “Hai” (Yes) and “Arigatoo” at the end, to thank him for his help.

It was a rainy day but nothing would dampen my mood. In total, it took me almost 3 hours and 3 changes of trains (including carrying my 30 kg luggage up and down the stairs a couple of times), which wasn’t fun (as opposed to 1 and a half hour via limousine bus). I finally arrived at a familiar place that I was going to stay for 7 days – Fudomae
不動前. The station has been renovated but the streets were still familiar from memory. It is a suburban town but I was surprised to see the development of the area and the increased number of people since I was there last in 1998, and later found out that it was because Motorola had opened a subsidiary there.



I walked to my aunt’s second storey apartment, and after unpacking all my presents and belongings, we had lunch at local inn which sold native “Indian curry”. It customized to the Japanese taste but it was still rather delicious. After that, I set out on my little adventure to explore Tokyo. I walked to the next main subway station with the JR Sen (Line ) available, which would bring me straight to popular destinations like Shibuya, Shinjuku and Harajuku. On
route, I walked past this familiar and interesting sign board which is one and only in the world – a traffic accident report of the past day, letting commuters know how many people met with accidents and how many died. Thankfully, there were no fatalities on the board in this photograph.



I alighted at
新宿 Shinjuku and got lost at the station. It wasn’t a comfortable feeling because there were no information booths that I could obtain a tourist map and I couldn’t ask around because I was surprised most of them didn’t speak English (or maybe they were not confident enough to reply). It was also a huge station and there were North South East West and then New South Exits. If you exited through the wrong one, it would take you ages even to find your way back to the place you exited from the station. I was happier later when I realized that about 5-6 million commuters use the station everyday and it made the whole ordeal less daunting and more acceptable.

It took me about half an hour until I found my bearings and a familiar place – Alta Studio. Even when I tried to ask them where Alta Studio is, no one understood, and then I realized that I had to pronounce it in Japanese katakana before they realized what I was talking about. I think I cried in my heart when I reached there because there were so many emotions and memories. The past 2 times I had been to Tokyo, it had been the meeting place for Leslie and I, so there were many past memories that flooded back.

From that point on, I could roam around and enjoy myself. The buildings, people, neon lights, people giving tissue paper as marketing materials instead of pamphlets (wonderful because we use them instead of chuck them immediately), “Sakura-ya” (the huge electrical shop), all familiar signs of Shinjuku in my mind. I was surprised to see so many people in Shinjuku at 3 pm in the afternoon crossing the streets on a weekday but this is nothing compared to weekends. Tokyo is the biggest city in the world, so it should be no surprise but for people who do not like crowds, it would definitely a place to avoid.

The best way to describe Shinjuku is that it is the "in-place" for young adults, who have graduated from their hip and trendy teenage years spent in 原宿 Harajuku. One can call it the "New York" or for Sydneysiders the "Town Hall" for Sydney. It is a shoppers paradise although paradise is probably not the right word to use because most of the items are rather expensive. It has however one of the largest "collections" of huge departmental stores like a 12 storey Tokyu, 7 storey Tokyo Hands, 2 7 storey Kinokuniya Bookstores (old and new) etc. The station is one of the largest and busiest as well. There is a "Tokyo" station but it is the CBD and generally used more by working professionals. Outside one of their new South exits for the station, I managed to see some street perfomers equipped with their bands and they started performing their "new songs". What surprised me most was the response from the pedestrians. Most people in Sydney would just stand there and watch or even not bother, but the Japanese would start clapping their hands to the beat of the song as a sign of encouragement. I found that most interesting and it reflects on their pop culture which grooms many amateur singers and mask them off as professionals.



By 7 pm (closing time for shops are around 8 or 9 pm), I had not slept for more than 24 hours, and my feet were starting to get a little weary but my happiness pushed me on. I was fully conscious that we don’t usually get into the holiday mood till 3-4 days into it, and I wanted to immerse myself immediately into it, so I was delighted. I did a lot of walking and reminiscing, and when it was time for bed, I fell deep soon with a smile, knowing that there will be more adventures the next day.

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Tokyo Dream

I didn't think it would happen so soon, but I am visiting Tokyo again for the 3rd time. My last visit was more than 7 years ago in 1998, so this will be another nostalgic trip. I am certain that many changes would have surfaced, but my love for Tokyo will always be there.

There are times when I walk past a street or a scent anywhere around the world, and it would remind me of my days in Tokyo, as short as they were, infinitely memorable. As I renew my love affair with Tokyo tomorrow morning at 7.30 am, I am looking into a possible future of "Nothing is impossible". Afterall, this is still an "unbelievable" dream come true.

I will try my best to update this blog with my happenings in Tokyo and I do hope to hear from anyone. Take Care and wish me luck ...

中森明菜 - Akina Nakamori Special Live 2005 Empress at CLUB eX -



Allow me this little indulgence ... I can't go this year and I am so envious of my friends, Tien, Eugin, Daniel and also a new friend, who I have not had the priviledge of seeing, Joy, who will be there in Japan this year during Akina's concert from the 7th to 17th July (total of 17 sessions) The sessions are listed here.

Recently, Akina wanted to be a club singer, so that she can be closer to her fans. To achieve this dream, she is holding a special concert this year at Club eX in Shinagawa, which holds only 450 seats in each concert. According to news reports and from Tien and Eugin, she will be holding an unplugged concert (I am more jealous) and it will consist totally of songs from her Utahime series (3 albums of cover versions). I hope that she will sing some new songs that she has not covered before in her 3 cover albums.

I believe that this will be a great challenge for any singer, not only for someone who loves challenges like Akina, to not only pull off singing popular songs of others live, but also in unplugged mode. This will be such a special concert and I am crossing my fingers that she will not only excel but also that it will be available on DVD, since Tien mentioned in her new blog that this concert is sponsored by TBS, which is such good news!

I am eagerly awaiting the first reports from Tien, who I believe is watching the first session, to see what she thinks. Akina has also mentioned that her image at the concert will be "vampish" like the one on the poster and that there will be some song changes during the 17 sessions to keep it fresh, especially for fans who might attend several sessions, like Tien and Joyce are. To learn more, you can actually visit Tien and Eugin's blog. Don't forget to go for another Akina karaoke session so that we can increase her income for this year!! (As ridiculous as it sounds, we found out recently that Japanese artistes actually get royalties if their songs are requested at Karaoke). Thanks guys and have my share of fun for me!!!

頑張って!!! 明菜さん.

The End of Innocence - 暗い世界 -

I remember a time when I didn't care ... about politics or how it affects our daily lives, choices and decisions. I am not only talking about when I was in Singapore, but also my first years of "innocence" in Australia. Maybe I was still living in my wrapped world then, but I remembered being a little puzzled over the fuss that people were making about the policies passed down by the government.

I know many people still avoid talking about politics, because like religion, it can be a topic of passion and argument. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, which is not something I learnt from Singapore, because of the authoritarian leadership practised, which may be what is suitable for them. What I learnt from my experience in Australia is to care ... not only about my own welfare but also to think more about the less priviledged and how decisions/policies passed down affect them in their everyday life.

It is easy for us to dismiss many issues just because we are not confronted by them everyday. Just because we have our basic needs of food, shelter and belongingness needs being satisfied doesn't mean that everyone is as lucky as we, even though we seldom acknowledge that we are fortunate.

The world is changing ... not only because natural causes, but also the choices we make and the leaders we or the majority believe represent us. I don't want to engage into a what's right or what's wrong argument here but there are fundamentals individual rights that we should fight for.

What I am talking about today is the Australian government and the decisions they are making in the coming months. I am not even talking about human rights. I am talking about the ABOLITION of the unfair dismissal laws and the changes to the industrial relations which affects everyone, which many, even the Christian institutions (who this government have strong inclination) are protesting. In the near future, we may no longer be protected by unfair practices, giving the rich and the institutions power to do anything they want. They are rewriting history and moving backwards in individual rights. They are undoing what great individuals have fought for us in the past, and many of us are sitting here not worrying, and sometimes, chastising the institutions for protesting.

In today's world, everything revolves around money ... university places are no longer a priviledge for those who work hard, because you have to have money too, or you will be left behind. If you have money, you can afford to immigrate to Australia. If not, will you be left on a detention centre, mistreated like a caged animal, by a government who only recently, changed their laws so that children will not be locked up in these detention centres. It took a few courageous people to do it, and thank God they did.

Nowadays, Government policies are no longer about inspiration ... it is about fear ... that we will lose the "luxuries" that we have grown accustomed to. The stranglehold they have on us as we sink deeper and deeper into debt just so that we can live the life that we so rightly deserve.

Where are we going to? Where is their conscience ... where is ours? Do we have to have a breakdown before we can achieve that breakthrough? Can we fight to keep our rights? I don't have answers to all these questions and so may you. I don't know if I was happier when I didn't care because it infuriates me to know that there are selfish people ruling the country. I believe in loving and sharing and we always take care of those less fortunate than us. So, for me, even though it hurts to see where we are heading, I know that by caring, I can hopefully make a difference.

I want to plant a seed in your mind, so that we will think when it is time to make a choice ... and hopefully, you will think not only with your head but with your heart as well ...

My Little Darlings - 世界のすべて ...



I love babies, like the way people love pets. I'm not a major animal lover but I have a soft spot for almost all babies. I constantly bemoan the fact that I don't get a chance to see my two beautiful little darlings grow up. Just because I choose to live my life elsewhere, I am robbed of the chance to watch them take their first steps at everything and to spend everyday with them.

Thankfully, the abscence allows me to cherish every single moment with them and it is something I am thankful for. I will always remember the little things we do, like how little Joy likes to chase the birds and giggle in her special little way, and how little Joshua would bang his hands in excitement when he is being fed or not.


These mundane episodes that may seem trivial are precious to me because they are moments that may never be replicated. I will also always have a special smile when I see this photo and remember Joy saying "Two babies".

Being with them allows me to escape into their fantasy world and through them, I have learnt that I can be totally selfless and indulge in unconditional love, and there is no better gift than this. So, Thank you, my beautiful sister, for giving me this intense joy of being an uncle and a chance to play father ...




Tokyo Story (東京物語) Tokyo Monogatari (1953)



Time Magazine just released their newest edition of the Top 100 Movies of All Time, and there is slight controversy because they have omitted one of the most popular movies of all time "Gone With the Wind" (1928), which they have parodied "Frankly, they don't care a damn" and called it a faux epic.

It was a definitive list with many foreign movies on the list and a handful from Asia, the most popular being from Japan, with classics like Akira Kurosawa's "Ikiru" (1952) and Yasujiro Ozu's (小津安二郎) "Tokyo Story" (Tokyo Monogatari) (1953) included in the list
. I did a count of the number of movies and arrived at a total of 26 movies, and my favourite of the list is "Tokyo Story" ("Ikiru" is close behind).

The director, Yasujiro Ozu, which has lately, become my favourite director of all time, deals with family oriented issues in his movies. I have omitted the word "drama" because even though his movies usually fall into that category, he avoids confrontations in his movies, leaving the conflict scenes out of the movies. He allows the viewer to see only the aftermath, and the effects of the conflicts have on his characters. His directorial style is very unique because he film with his camera on the ground. So, the viewer seems to be on "eye level" with the characters in the movie, since most Japanese sit or kneel down on tatami mats. Another enchanting characteristic of his style is that he rarely moves the camera, preferring to let the characters move around in the scenes.


Ozu's movies typically depict the generational changes after postwar Japan and always around the family unit. His biographer Donald Ritchie recounts that Ozu dislikes plot, which is why he leaves the "pivotal conflict scenes" out of the movie. He starts writing a screenplay through development of characters and then fills in the story in between. This unique style contributes to the longevity of his movies because ultimately, human character and personality do not change much through generations.

"Tokyo Story" is the first Ozu movie I watched and I have shared it with many friends, who have loved the movie as much as I did. One of the conversations we had recently after the movie made us aware that such issues as "non-communication" and hidden meanings (even when it comes from love) can still have repercussions today, even though this movie was released in 1953.

"Tokyo Story" is about an aging couple who come to Tokyo to visit their children and their grandchildren, only to find that their children no longer care for them. Only their widowed daughter-in-law takes the effort to spend time with them during their holiday. The children decide to send them away to a short hot spring getaway but when they do not enjoy it and come back, their children chide them for wasting their money. They go back to their hometown and the mother falls ill and dies ...

One of the classic lines in the movie is "Isn't life disappointing" and the sister in law says "Yes", reflecting on the reality of life. Ozu's films usually end with loneliness due to a death or the breakup of a family due to marriage, but they are not morbid. They are lifelike, and they represent little fragments of our lives that we can identify with. Under his careful direction and passion for his characters (even the less desirable ones), we get to know the characters in depth during the 2 hours through a window in their lives, and we are affected forever ...

"Not to have seen TOKYO STORY is not to have lived. . . . One of the most beautiful and compassionate films in history." ・Geoff Brown, The Times (London)

Films of Yasujiro Ozu




Rating: 9.5/10
Other Reviews: Amazon; Rotten Tomatoes